~扬~帆~飘~飘~

这场病真的让我变得很消极，

我前几天一度认为自己永远要这样咳嗽下去。

我不知道自己怎么这么夸张，比得癌症的人还悲观，但是这却是我真实的感受。

人在异乡生病大概都是这样吧？

我在美国基本上没病过，因为这边空气好，这次病了2个星期，自己有点无法接受。

另外，

将近有3个星期没有运动了，有点过分自责。

心情很不好。

昨晚看了一个专业personal trainer写的文章，让我感觉好了一点，原来中断运动是很平常的事。

很多人平时都按时按计划运动，

但是一过节、生病、工作忙之类的，运动计划就被搁置了。

这些都是很正常的阶段，关键是怎么get back on track……

这个personal trainer的名字叫： Paige Waehner

她的博客是： http://exercise.about.com/b/ 

她曾经从University of Memphis本科毕业，到今为止一共当了13年的健身教练，也写了很多科学运动的书。

读她的文章很有意思。

譬如，她写到有些人去party不小心吃了很多的奶酪，于是下决心第二天要搞3个小时的运动，

她说这种方法是不可行的，

因为吃下去的奶酪已经不能吐出来了，责备自己也于事无补，

连搞3个小时运动只会让本来就不是太爱搞运动的人更加厌恶运动……

她的文笔挺活泼的～ 再次转载一篇她的文章“5 Ways to Stick With Your Exercise Goals”，以供欣赏：

Beginning or getting back to an exercise routine involves more than just scheduling your workouts and joining a gym. In fact, it's entirely possible to join a gym and never actually go, even as those monthly payments show up on your bank statement. I know this because I've done that a few times in my life. Sticking with your goals requires a few mental tricks to help keep you moving, focused and motivated.

1. Momentum . Momentum is a key part of consistent exercise. You know what I'm talking about...you have those weeks when everything goes right: you do all your workouts, eat like a health freak and start to think, 'I can totally do this!' Then 'it' happens. 'It' might be a holiday, a vacation, an illness...something that throws you off your game. Getting back is always tough, partly because you've lost that momentum. We already know (courtesy of Isaac Newton) that an object at rest tends to stay at rest, so getting moving again is the only way to get your momentum going. Think of yourself like a stalled car...once you start pushing it, it'll pick up speed and you won't have to work hard to keep it moving. If that analogy doesn't do it for you, try these ideas:

• Focus on the habit . Instead of worrying about making up for lost time with crazy-intense workouts, focus on just getting some workout time in. Plan your workouts for the week and call yourself successful just for showing up.
• Buy yourself a little something . Maybe I'm weird, but I always get a little excited when I have a shiny new pair of running shoes or a great pair of shorts to wear to the gym. If you're having trouble getting back to it, get a new outfit or download some new songs to your MP3 player so you have something to look forward to.
• Make a date . Make an appointment to workout with a friend or call your gym and set up a free consultation with a personal trainer. Even if you don't sign up, getting back into the exercise environment can be just the nudge you need.
• Do something crazy . If the thought of going back to boring gym workouts makes you want to curl up and die, do something totally different. Sign up for a local bellydancing class or check out that new yoga studio you drive by every day. A change of scenery and a brand new activity can refresh and rejuvenate you.

2. Stay in the Moment . Picture this: you're at a party. You've promised yourself you won't attack the buffet like a starving lunatic. Then you see a giant platter of the prettiest, most perfect cubes of cheese you've ever encountered. Several hours later, feeling your cheese hangover begin, you vow to make up for it tomorrow with a two-hour workout.

There are a couple of problems with this approach--first, you can't un-eat what you ate the night before and, second, killing yourself with a workout is not a great solution since it makes you hate exercise even more.

If you're busy living in yesterday's mistakes, many of your decisions will be based on guilt and shame rather than what you genuinely want (and need) to do to reach your goals. True change comes from daily choices and basing your choices on what you need now (instead of what you did or didn't do yesterday) will make your exercise life much more tolerable.

• Stop the blame game . If you mess up, give yourself a time limit for how long you'll feel bad about it. For example, if you missed your workout yesterday, give yourself permission to kick yourself for the next 20 minutes. When time's up, let it go and focus on today's workout.
• Set daily goals . You might find it's easier to stay in the moment if you have specific daily goals (instead of just relying on a long-term goal to lose weight). Make a list of what you want to accomplish today (e.g., eat fruit with every meal, a 30-minute workout, getting at least 8,000 steps on my pedometer, etc.) and check off each thing you accomplish. Makes you feel good, doesn't it?
• Reward yourself . After setting and meeting your daily goals, plan a little something nice for yourself. Having something to look forward to always makes it easier to do the hard things (like exercise). Take a few minutes to listen to your favorite song, sip a hot cup of tea, take a bath or putter in the garage...whatever floats your boat.

• 3. Get Inspired . Every Tuesday and Thursday my 84-year-old grandmother goes to the gym and does water aerobics, no matter what. She's a great inspiration to me...if she can exercise, there's definitely no good reason I can't do my workout either. So, what or who inspires you? Is it the older woman you see walking every day, rain or shine? Or maybe it's a co-worker training for his first marathon. The next time you're thinking of skipping your workout, think of the person who inspires you...or think of my grandma (you can call her Maw Maw). If she can exercise, so can you.

  4. Get Back to Basics . I recently worked with a client who did very well on her program for about 3 months. Then the holidays hit and, before she knew it, those intense workouts were out the window. She even admitted to actually scrubbing her bathroom floor with a toothbrush to avoid her workouts. Now, that's bad! To get her back into some kind of routine, I simplified her workouts and made them short, accessible and much less complicated than before. Now, she's going strong and ready to add more complexity to her workouts. Why not try the same approach if you're having trouble getting back to it? Simplify your workouts by:

• Choosing easy, accessible activities. Walking or running is something most of us can do without much preparation or equipment.
• Try more compound movements (e.g., squats, lunges, pushups and dips) to save time and work more muscle groups.
• Just move. If even taking a walk seems too complicated, simplify even more: turn on the radio and dance around the house or do some kicks and punches while you're watching TV.
• Try these short cardio and strength training workout ideas

5. Get to know yourself . If you've never been much of an exerciser or athlete, now is the time to discover a few new things about yourself. Think of this as a learning period. If you've fallen off track because you're completely bored with your routine, you've just learned something important about yourself---that you hate treadmill workouts or that doing workout videos at home blows. Spend some time asking and answering these questions:

• What do you like about your workouts?
• What do you hate about your workouts?
• What's your least favorite exercise or activity?
• When do you most enjoy exercise?
• If you could choose any physical activity to do, what would it be?
• Do you enjoy working out with others or alone?

Now take the answers to those questions and look at your workout routine. Does it include activities you enjoy? Is your schedule in line with your body clock (or as close as you can get)? What could you do to make your workouts fit you better? Make a list of ideas and choose one to implement today. There's no right way to exercise.

Staying on track with your exercise program probably requires more mental work than physical work. It means checking in with yourself to see how you're doing, how the routine is working and making whatever changes necessary to keep you moving. It means finding inspiration wherever you can and being willing to try new ideas if the old ones aren't working. Most of all, it means not giving up.

 

 

 

昨晚病刚刚好了一点就去了Science Academy，

见到一只很像雕像的鳄鱼 ！！

居然是真的！

而且不能在野生环境下生存下去！！！！

还挺迟钝的，闪光灯随便闪，管理员也不管。

真像一只冷冻鸡！！！！

 

出门走走，吃了喉片，感冒都好了一半了，

谁知道回到家就是忍不住心魔，吃了点薯条，又病了！

今天一天都在家喝感冒冲剂！！

 

 

那天看全家福发现二姨穿了牛仔外套，

对啦，现在denim jacket is back in style!!!

这是我的look:

 

 

 

 

偶尔在开车的时候，电台里放了这首歌，很温暖。

为了避免跟我空间的背景音乐冲突，请点开窗口听。

歌词：

i'm talking to you
across the water across the deep blue ocean
under the open sky, oh my, baby i'm trying
boy i hear you in my dreams
i feel your whisper across the sea
i keep you with me in my heart
you make it easier when life gets hard
i'm lucky i'm in love with my best friend
lucky to have been where i have been
lucky to be coming home again
ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
they don't know how long it takes
waiting for a love like this
every time we say goodbye
i wish we had one more kiss
i'll wait for you i promise you, i will
i'm lucky i'm in love with my best friend
lucky to have been where i have been
lucky to be coming home again
lucky we're in love every way
lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
lucky to be coming home someday
and so i'm sailing through the sea
to an island where we'll meet
you'll hear the music fill the air
i'll put a flower in your hair
though the breezes through trees
move so pretty you're all i see
as the world keeps spinning round
you hold me right here right now
i'm lucky i'm in love with my best friend
lucky to have been where i have been
lucky to be coming home again
i'm lucky we're in love every way
lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
lucky to be coming home someday
ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

I got a dance class to go to in an hour and I am cooking dinner for myself while typing. At the meanwhile, I am opening up the package I ordered from an online pet supply shop. I should admit I am just a regular woman who likes multi-tasking, and that is exactly why women can be better moms than guys.

 

Well, well, well, what do I wanna talk about today?  I wanna share some thoughts on individual beings, sense of self and happiness. I do things daily to make myself feeling space. No matter if I am going to school, spending time with my boyfriend and cats, or partying, I do them to feel special. Then I often caught me asking myself is this or that feeling normal, or common? I just realized my tendency of doing that and I couldn't help wondering since when it became so important for me to be normal and common? I thought I always wanted to be special.

 

Here is where lays the problem. I want to fit in our society so I can be around people who can make me feel special. By being normal, I can better fit in certain groups I want to fit in, so I wouldn't be considered a deviant. However, I sometimes feel too insecure to identify which groups I really want to fit in. I ended up getting into the social circles that make me feel even more lonely. Therefore, no matter how lonely you feel, it is highly essencial that you would pause and ask yourself, is this really what you want? Does it make you happy?

 

Moreover, the truly authentic happiness always came from  yourself, not anyone else. Hollywood celebrities can feel crappy about themselves a lot of times if they don't choose to seek inner voice that will make them feel special. Now the hard task is to tell yourself constantly how special you are, but with a little patience, we can all achieve that.

 

晚上去看Lily Allen的演唱会，下个星期去SPCA当volunteer，下周五晚电影社又一party。

看起来很热闹，但是心里很冷清。

自己跟自己的关系除了错，没弄清楚错在哪里。

Sigh……  又一次落入熟悉地迷茫中……

仿佛生活在告诉我，清楚是暂时的，迷茫才是永恒的。

  

打电话给我爸真是一件@￥%&的事……

爸问我电影拍得怎样了，我说拿了一等奖，

他又问“那你个人呢？你个人拿了几等奖？”

我答，只有集体奖，没有个人荣誉。

他问“那你在剧组担任什么位置？”

我说“上次不是告诉你了么，化妆、跑龙套、打杂。什么都干一点。我发现我跟你说话说了也是白说，说多少遍你都不记得。”

他说“你没理解我的意思！我是问你，你是领导别人，还是被领导？”

我非常非常之无奈，只好拿出杀手锏：“所谓‘胜人者有力，自胜者强’，你这老想着领导别人太初级了，您老应该追求一下进步。”

 

片子出来了：

  

 

看不到的同志们可以点此链接看： http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Et1MCzpk40U

这个是YY做的，香菜炒茄子

这个是在超市买的三文鱼，比在寿司店吃划得来多了……

这是我发明的梅干菜木耳炒豌豆

荞麦面+油条+蘑菇

豆腐脑

 

妈妈一定觉得我好能干哟！！

 

 

还有一些别的散装的，没有这个好看，所以不拍了……